honesty

finally stopped something i should have done months ago.
now i feel better. like nothing is holding me down.
no need to feel guilty. no one is hurt.
life is just easier when everyone is being honest!

happy wednesday!

five favorite smells

in no particular order..
the smell of... fresh rain...

the smell of.. freshly baked bread...

the smell of.. fresh laundry...

the smell of.. baby powder...

the smell of.. freshly brewed coffee...

these are my favorite smells!

dont bring me down

i hate negativity...

so why am i living with the most negative person in the world?

you make me feel bad about myself...
and you dont even know it.

you're so high and mighty.
you hate it when you lose control...
when things dont go your way.

you will never change. you told me that.
i have to accept you. but that doesnt mean im not going to challenge you.
or bend down to you. coz i wont.

john and karl.. and magic

i just read a yahoo article ranking the top 5 great nba players that never won a title and no. 1 goes to john stockton and karl malone *claps* i used to love john stockton so bad i have almost all of his trading cards and i always use john stockton whenever i play the nba game in the pc. i did however read that john's a bit aggressive (hardnosed and physical) but well respected by his peers.

but of course, magic johnson is still my favorite player of all time!!!

peevish thought

why do parents create social networking accounts for their children who are less than 4 years of age??

i mean seriously..
that kid can not use the computer,
does not understand what social networking means,
can not log on to their own account
or write statuses or comments
or upload anything without supervision.
and the kid probably does not have friends to socially network with!

so what's the point?

children of these ages should be outside playing ball
or running around inside the house with their yayas
and siblings and their toys,
not joining facebook or twitter.

come on!!

my life

everyday feels like deja vu..

am i living in a dream

or am i just stuck in a rut?

Frenemy

I have a love-hate relationship with stairs.

I love using the stairs because walking helps me think and it's a good exercise.

I hate stairs esp when i'm wearing high heels because more often than not i slip and trip over the slippery steps. It has happened to me so many times i've learned to grab on to the rails and carefully descend them.

babyface

i went to resorts world this afternoon with A to watch Kaos the musical. we applied for a membership card online so when we got there, they told us we can claim the membership card inside the casino. as we went in the casino, the guard stopped us and asked me, "Ma'am, ilang taon na po kayo?" I was smiling when I said, "I'm 30." The guard didn't respond, like he was thinking if i was telling the truth or not so I repeated. "I'm 30." he still looked unconvinced so I said again ,while A and I were laughing, "I'm 30." He finally let me go and we were laughing all the way to the customer service counter.

I was wearing full makeup on, with not-so-young getup (loose off-shouldered blouse, black jeans, 3 inch black studded heels, brown Mango sling bag) but I still got mistaken for a minor! i find it funny because it's been such a long time since i got asked my age, i thought by now i would have looked mature.. so either I really will always look like a babyface or my anti-aging creams are working!!

when you're young, you hate it when people think that you're a kid, but when you're older, you relish when people mistake you for someone younger. so i'll enjoy these moments while i still can :)

geek chic

i confess, though the high school jocks and hearthrobs are handsome, i've always gone for the geeks.. even my favorite actors are the geeky, funny and sweet guys. there have some several list of favorite hollywood geeks and i thought i'll list down my own top 3:

3.) joseph gordon levitt
i love 10 things i hate about you not just because of heath ledger and julia stiles but also because of cameron (played by joseph gordon levitt). he has recently come back as the sweet guy in 500 days of summer and uberhot in inception. i heard he will be in the next batman movie.. this awkward geek is now a rising hot star!

2.) paul rudd
from one of my favorite chicklit movies, clueless, to a string of laidback movies, paul is my favorite geek. he was in romeo+juliet, the object of my affection, anchorman, 40 year old virgin, night at the museum, knocked up, over her dead body, role models, i love you man, dinner for schmucks... he's probably the guy you would dismiss in high school for being a shy geek, or as Jason Mraz says, "you might regret what you let slip away like the geek in the pink..."

1.) nathan filion
ruggedly handsome rick castle! he's a self-confessed geek god. i love his character in castle because he is so charming and smart and witty.. and that's why even if kate beckett tries to date other hot model looking doctors or cops, she always go back to castle. i've read his interviews in magazines and he sounds exactly like his characters, except geekier (haha). im not a fan of sci-fi but for him, i'd watch Firefly.

other anti-matinee idol actors that i like are:
the ever so quirky johnny depp - loved him most as sweeney todd

i loved-him-since-titanic leo dicaprio

mark ruffalo - i liked him in 13 going 30, feels like heaven, zodiac, shutter island

simon baker - i want to be the one who can heal patrick jane's heart, but i'm afraid i'm not good enough for him (hehe)

and two prettyboys but not so anti-matinee idols that i like are:
james marsden - he can be the leading man (27 dresses), an action hero (cyclops) or a singer (enchanted / hairspray).. a versatile performer

chris pine - he made me like star wars. enuf said.

patrick dempsey - mcdreamy yummy.. and all that sexy hair..

heart attack on the road

driving along makati avenue during morning rush hour is so stressful!!!  people are not following the lanes or eating up two lanes, singit ng singit at overtake para makalamang eh traffic naman.  if i wasn't a defensive driver i probably would have had a car accident already. And the blame mostly goes to the undisciplined jeepney and taxi drivers -- they want to turn left but they're staying at the far right lane and they will force their way just to reach the left lane on time, causing havoc on the streets. and they don't use signal lights! our bad driving skills pooly showcase our attitude and personality. tsk tsk!

pwned by a critter

funny story last night..

i was going to greenhills with my dhya to watch the adjustment bureau when my ahya asked me to buy him a hot cafe mocha at starbucks. when we finished watching the movie (good premise but bad execution - the movie ended up being shallow..so disappointing), i went starbucks to buy the coffee.

since our car did not have cup holders, i had to hold the coffee the whole ride home. through the bumps and humps, i carefully made sure that i wont spill the coffee.. we even made some detours (fetching my nephews, stopping by mercury).. so when we finally reached home, i was proud of myself for not spilling a single drop of coffee.

i went up to our house and went straight to my ahya's room. i knocked once and he immediately opened the door. then he pointed to the wall right beside me and said, "uy! may daga!" i screamed and spilled some of the coffee as the mouse scurried away from me. ACK!!!

cry for help

what do you do with a person so stubborn he won't accept anybody's words of advice?
even if it means saving his life, or making him feel better.
i know he's hurting real bad, the physical pain is starting to get to him
but no matter how hard we try to talk to him
he hears nothing.
he tries to hide the pain. he's scared of what he's feeling.
we're scared too but we can't do anything if he wont let us.
if he wont help himself.
has he given up? or does he simply dont care?
do we give up? do we stop trying?
do we just leave it to fate?
i wish someone will wake him up from a decade's slumber and lead him back to the right path.
i wish God will hear my prayers.

dreams

i'm having these jumbled dreams
and they're so mixed up
it's confusing the hell out of me.

now i'm having sleepless nights
and when morning comes,
i can hardly open my eyes to wake up.

can someone make these dreams go away?

realisation

you know you're getting old when you start buying and believing in anti-aging products...

nerd vs geek

nerd noun \ˈnərd\ 
Merriam Webster:  an unstylish, unattractive, or socially inept person;especially : one slavishly devoted to intellectual or academic pursuits
Wiktionary: A person who is intellectual, skilled in one or more fields, and generally introverted

geek noun \ˈgēk\
Merriam Webster:  an enthusiast or expert especially in a technological field or activity
Wiktionary: A person who is intensely interested in a particular field or hobby and usually antisocial

so what am i? hm.. i think both types are the anti-social kind (which im really not) but im intensely interested in a particular field or hobby rather than being skilled in one or more fields, so i think i'm in a middle, but the normal kind.. as i would say that i'm the average neek (or gerd).

flying solo

i love my "me" time. i love being alone, whether in my room or in my car or in the office.
just doing my own thing. doing what i love. like i'm in my own little world where everything's fine.
i love the comfortable silence where no one's talking and everything's so calm and peaceful.
i feel like i can hear my thoughts more and understand myself better.

sometimes i wonder if i'm a recluse. that i'd rather be alone than have company.
or is it because i'm used to be alone that's why i like being alone.
or maybe i just need to be someone to understand why other people do not like being alone.
doesn't matter if you're single or taken, i think everyone needs a little time alone with themselves.
now leave me alone and i'm going back to my happy bubble!

big bang theory

after watching season 1 of the big bang theory, i finally realised that i'm not that nerdy because i can't understand most of the technical jargon they discuss during the show but i'm still geeky enough that i can understand and laugh at their jokes and actually somehow relate to their unsocial and uncool behavior.

i think it would be funny having these 4 nerds as your neighbors. very entertaining.

oh, and i love the theme song from The Barenaked Ladies:

Our whole universe was in a hot dense state,

Then nearly fourteen billion years ago expansion started. Wait...
The Earth began to cool,
The autotrophs began to drool,
Neanderthals developed tools,
We built a wall (we built the pyramids),
Math, science, history, unraveling the mysteries,
That all started with the big bang!

"Since the dawn of man" is really not that long,
As every galaxy was formed in less time than it takes to sing this song.
A fraction of a second and the elements were made.
The bipeds stood up straight,
The dinosaurs all met their fate,
They tried to leap but they were late
And they all died (they froze their asses off)
The oceans and pangea
See ya, wouldn't wanna be ya
Set in motion by the same big bang!

It all started with the big BANG!
It's expanding ever outward but one day
It will cause the stars to go the other way,
Collapsing ever inward, we won't be here, it wont be hurt
Our best and brightest figure that it'll make an even bigger bang!

Australopithecus would really have been sick of us
Debating out while here they're catching deer (we're catching viruses)
Religion or astronomy, Encarta, Deuteronomy
It all started with the big bang!

Music and mythology, Einstein and astrology
It all started with the big bang!
It all started with the big BANG!

early xmas present anyone?

true blood figurines.. i like i like!! how to get them for xmas?? tell mee!!!

bunnies are sooo cute!

awww.. the white bunnies are soo adorable.. i want to pinch their cheeks and squeeze them and hug them!!! check out the one at the right when it yawns... *gigil*

pullip dolls

late last year, i was searching for items that i can start collecting. i tried kokeshi dolls, thought they were cute but i just bought a few colors and i'm satisfied. what i really want to collect are these cute Pullip Dolls. they're a bit expensive and i'm still building up courage to start purchasing my first Pullip. here are some of the dolls that i want:

i got these pics from a website in Singapore who sells these dolls: http://www.magmaheritage.com/ and the US website of Jun Planning

Audrey Hepburn series
Princess Anne (from Roman Holiday movie)

Sabrina (from Sabrina, of course)

Holly Golightly (Breakfast at Tiffany's)

Peter Pan series - Peter Pan, Tiger Lily (Byul), Captain Hook (Taeyang) and Tinkerbell (Dal)

What i call the European series - Alberic, Charlotte (Dal) and Marianne

Alice in Wonderland series
Blue Alice, Cheshire Cat, Queen of Hearts, March Hare, Dormouse

(Dal) Mad Hatter, White Rabbit, Pink Alice, Soldier of Cards, Humpty Dumpty

Clarity

Shanria

Vampire series - Ende (Dal) and Nosferatu (Taeyang)