18 again

last sunday night, i went to my mom's friend's daughter's debut party at the century hotel. the theme was about princesses and the table were all named after a princess (ex. sofia, camilla, isabella, etc..). the last time i had been to a debut party was 10 years ago, when me and my friends were 18 and have just started college. at first, i wasn't too keen on going to the party. i thought it would be too childish for me to attend it. but of course i know the birthday girl and i wasn't doing anything anyway so i went to the party. and i'm glad i did. coz i had fun. well, i really didn't do anything, just sat down, ate a yummy buffet and watched the night's activities. but i had fun because that night i reminisced those days when i was young and carefree. when all we worried about were passing subjects and joining extracurricular activities. how simple life was back then.

at the start of the program, G, the birthday girl wore a pretty fuchsia dress and she sat at the throne while they showed a short video of her in front of everyone. i dont know who did the video (i think it was G herself) and it was filled with pictures of her with her family..and her younger sister (i think they're best friends) and more selca pics of herself...i thought where are her pics with her friends? but then the second part of the program was the 18 roses dance and one by one her 18 close guy friends danced with her from her dad (first) to her boyfriend (last). then came the third and fourth programs, 18 candles and 18 treasures where 18 friends light a candle and present their gifts and say their wishes to her. i find it funny that their greetings were the usual cliches, "stay as sweet and adorable as you are" *giggles* "thanks for everything" *more giggles*. i remember being that way when i was a teenager. we wrote cutesy and generic dedications and giggled a lot. not that it's bad. i'm not blogging to laugh at them. i just couldn't help but smile at them.

when i was 18 i had so many things i wanted to do. i wanted to have an awesome time in college. i wanted to get good grades. i wanted to enjoy life hanging out with my friends and sometimes cutting classes. that was the good life! life was so simple back then. no worries. i couldnt wait to graduate and start working. fast forward ten years later. here i am. i have fulfilled my college dreams. i'm now working in a great company, earning a decent amount of money and getting a lot of travel perks. but life is no longer easy. i still have so many things i want to do. this time i want my own house. my own car. my own furniture. i want prestige. i want more money. but this time it's not that easy. i need to work doubly hard if i wanted to reach for my dreams. i need to work my butt off and make sound decisions. this isn't college anymore where when you fail a subject you just retake it again. this time your choices affect your life. and it's scary when you think of the future. i don't know what's going to happen or where im going to be.. i still havent decided it yet. right now im taking baby steps. im slowly building my path to where i want to be.

but for one night, i didn't think of my future, i thought of the wonderful memories of my childhood and relished the silliness and the simple happiness of it all. last night, i went to the portable picture booth outside the room, donned the silliest hair piece i could find and flashed my silliest grin and peace sign. tonight i'm going to have fun. anyway, as scarlet o'hara said, "tomorrrow is another day!"